Once Upon a Time

i loved you once

i loved you once,
with the passion
of a dozen flaming suns;
i loved you once,
when you were all i needed,
a delight to my senses
and a boon in my woes;
i loved you once,
in a time
that you were in my soul;
i loved you once…

i loved you once,
but you toyed with my affection;
i loved you once,
but i weathered you
wanton cruelty;
i loved you once,
but you never
noticed enough to care
and never
cared enough to notice…

now you need me,
you beg and plead
and appeal to good and kindness,

but
i loved you once,
when you knew naught for me
but persistent apathy;
i loved you once,
but the lonely shards
and missing fragments,
the hole that held a heart,
dictate
that i can do no more…

i loved you once
with a passion
like great oceans,
but never now,
never more

because i

loved you

once.

My New School

on and off, on and off ....the switch goes.
why I have no friends and no foes.

life seems like a polarized sepia tinted picture
why do i look around for frnds even while sitting in a lecture

HE turns back and I wonder whi is he smiling? oO
I look away in confusion and pretend to look at the ceiling

I sit alone fiddling with fork, at the lunch table
He gives me strange looks ; this makes me more feeble

They are together and happy They laugh They giggle
why everything around me seems like a riddle

everyday I do nothing but complete the assignment
I'm still adjusting with strangers and walking on the 'wet cement'

Its been a week no One seems wiling to talk
except him who smiles at me even when he is among his folks

I wonder why I'm not able to smile back?
In library i watch him behind those book racks

he walks in the empty class....empty!!...not exactly for him
I'm still busy writing ; he comes and adjusts my glass's rim

shocked and startled , I move away
He smiles again and says

"I'm Sorry!!......I just came to talk to you"
"I would like to be your friend......would you too?!? "