empty vas

I sat on my couch facing the sun......
I suddenly realized the feeling still run...

I stood like a coward in front the world....denied every moment wat i felt
I knw this very fact....u'll never realize.....wat was i going thru....n wat I delt

I knw its long lost in past.....but wat do i do with this flower vas
The emptyness in it makes me feel that wat i am today....n wat i then was

I will never accept u in my life.....as the world has already stuffed empty spaces wid the perfect combo
tell me where i went wrong n y cant i mend things the way it was

I will never see u again.....this feeling tears me apart
its a stinging feeling which burn my heart

M nt cheated on u or him......
I myself hav no clue.....where i belong....n where i am

push me away from this cliff....let me fall away from u
I do not y I still cant forget you

dont go....

I want u to know,i never want u to go
i would never let u go................even if u dont love me anymore
i want u here...............so please......please dont leave me alone
though u r rude to me n I claim I hate u…..there s a part of me which stil adore
u made me cry…..and cry…..that there r no more tears left in store
happiness still awaits me……I want to see u more and more
I never felt this weak……I never realized my feelings were so pure

I want u to know…..i never want u to go

Once Upon a Time

i loved you once

i loved you once,
with the passion
of a dozen flaming suns;
i loved you once,
when you were all i needed,
a delight to my senses
and a boon in my woes;
i loved you once,
in a time
that you were in my soul;
i loved you once…

i loved you once,
but you toyed with my affection;
i loved you once,
but i weathered you
wanton cruelty;
i loved you once,
but you never
noticed enough to care
and never
cared enough to notice…

now you need me,
you beg and plead
and appeal to good and kindness,

but
i loved you once,
when you knew naught for me
but persistent apathy;
i loved you once,
but the lonely shards
and missing fragments,
the hole that held a heart,
dictate
that i can do no more…

i loved you once
with a passion
like great oceans,
but never now,
never more

because i

loved you

once.

My New School

on and off, on and off ....the switch goes.
why I have no friends and no foes.

life seems like a polarized sepia tinted picture
why do i look around for frnds even while sitting in a lecture

HE turns back and I wonder whi is he smiling? oO
I look away in confusion and pretend to look at the ceiling

I sit alone fiddling with fork, at the lunch table
He gives me strange looks ; this makes me more feeble

They are together and happy They laugh They giggle
why everything around me seems like a riddle

everyday I do nothing but complete the assignment
I'm still adjusting with strangers and walking on the 'wet cement'

Its been a week no One seems wiling to talk
except him who smiles at me even when he is among his folks

I wonder why I'm not able to smile back?
In library i watch him behind those book racks

he walks in the empty class....empty!!...not exactly for him
I'm still busy writing ; he comes and adjusts my glass's rim

shocked and startled , I move away
He smiles again and says

"I'm Sorry!!......I just came to talk to you"
"I would like to be your friend......would you too?!? "

I wish....

i wish i knew ; my torn sky who sew

i wish i could fly ;n my feelings could multiply

i wish you were like me; coz m nt like you ,i feel guilty

i wish it was easy ; i could see u pain,coz i was busy

i wish i could love you ; i wish it was all true

i wish i was good ; m so sorry n i knw i should

i wish i could erase ; my life's bad phase

i wish i could dream ; i could say things i really mean

i wish i could die ; in your arms i find comfort, n its nt a lie

i wish you could complain ; m sorry i never intended to crash ur plane

i wish i could love ; myself,the way he does

i wish i could sleep ; but i cant, as i dont want to see him weep

i wish i could touch ; you taught me the true meaning of love , thank you so much!!

My Mr. Right!!!

written on 14th May 06 [8:20 pm]


There is a Person in my Mind
And I knw I'll get him any time
To meet him would be my Pleasure
B'cuz I knw he would be my Treasure

When I'll meet him for the first tym
The whole world would just stop for a While
He'll Hug me n kiss me
Just to say that I wasnt there in his life so he missed me.

By being cosy with other women he would fill me with Jealousy
To see me angry n sad..he would serve me with all kind of delicacy
He would do everything to make me Happy
even at mid night he would change my baby's nappy.

He'll protect me,love me,make me smily
and always treat my mom n dad as his own Family
He will be very Romantic all the time
Just to tease me ..would talk bout other gals for a while

If I'll get hurt or fall down
he would pick me in his arms & would make me feel like a princess with a crown
He 'll be very caring and would treat me as a child
help me go Up there like a missile

He'll teach me true meaning of life
He would be lucky to have me as his Wife ;)
He is not just any usual Boy
He is very special coz he is my dreamguy

He is loving,caring,daring and all that you say
well well he has it all what more can I say

Its nt an ILLUSION

well this an answer for few frnds of mine who think.......m crazy


Somewhere Sometime...
I Know The STARS will Shine
Far Away Somewhere
RYAN [Oberoi] is Aware
The depth Of Sunset
Makes me Forget
The HAND which is holding Me
and, the ONE in my Dreams is HE
Near or Far
He is my God gifted "mercedes CAR"
Walk or Fly
Thinking bout him I Feel so SHY.

Living is Fantasy is My Way
Ryan doesn't exists-WHO SAYS ? O_o
I Know , I Can Feel
The Dream Will Turn into REAL