empty vas

I sat on my couch facing the sun......
I suddenly realized the feeling still run...

I stood like a coward in front the world....denied every moment wat i felt
I knw this very fact....u'll never realize.....wat was i going thru....n wat I delt

I knw its long lost in past.....but wat do i do with this flower vas
The emptyness in it makes me feel that wat i am today....n wat i then was

I will never accept u in my life.....as the world has already stuffed empty spaces wid the perfect combo
tell me where i went wrong n y cant i mend things the way it was

I will never see u again.....this feeling tears me apart
its a stinging feeling which burn my heart

M nt cheated on u or him......
I myself hav no clue.....where i belong....n where i am

push me away from this cliff....let me fall away from u
I do not y I still cant forget you

dont go....

I want u to know,i never want u to go
i would never let u go................even if u dont love me anymore
i want u here...............so please......please dont leave me alone
though u r rude to me n I claim I hate u…..there s a part of me which stil adore
u made me cry…..and cry…..that there r no more tears left in store
happiness still awaits me……I want to see u more and more
I never felt this weak……I never realized my feelings were so pure

I want u to know…..i never want u to go

Once Upon a Time

i loved you once

i loved you once,
with the passion
of a dozen flaming suns;
i loved you once,
when you were all i needed,
a delight to my senses
and a boon in my woes;
i loved you once,
in a time
that you were in my soul;
i loved you once…

i loved you once,
but you toyed with my affection;
i loved you once,
but i weathered you
wanton cruelty;
i loved you once,
but you never
noticed enough to care
and never
cared enough to notice…

now you need me,
you beg and plead
and appeal to good and kindness,

but
i loved you once,
when you knew naught for me
but persistent apathy;
i loved you once,
but the lonely shards
and missing fragments,
the hole that held a heart,
dictate
that i can do no more…

i loved you once
with a passion
like great oceans,
but never now,
never more

because i

loved you

once.

My New School

on and off, on and off ....the switch goes.
why I have no friends and no foes.

life seems like a polarized sepia tinted picture
why do i look around for frnds even while sitting in a lecture

HE turns back and I wonder whi is he smiling? oO
I look away in confusion and pretend to look at the ceiling

I sit alone fiddling with fork, at the lunch table
He gives me strange looks ; this makes me more feeble

They are together and happy They laugh They giggle
why everything around me seems like a riddle

everyday I do nothing but complete the assignment
I'm still adjusting with strangers and walking on the 'wet cement'

Its been a week no One seems wiling to talk
except him who smiles at me even when he is among his folks

I wonder why I'm not able to smile back?
In library i watch him behind those book racks

he walks in the empty class....empty!!...not exactly for him
I'm still busy writing ; he comes and adjusts my glass's rim

shocked and startled , I move away
He smiles again and says

"I'm Sorry!!......I just came to talk to you"
"I would like to be your friend......would you too?!? "

I wish....

i wish i knew ; my torn sky who sew

i wish i could fly ;n my feelings could multiply

i wish you were like me; coz m nt like you ,i feel guilty

i wish it was easy ; i could see u pain,coz i was busy

i wish i could love you ; i wish it was all true

i wish i was good ; m so sorry n i knw i should

i wish i could erase ; my life's bad phase

i wish i could dream ; i could say things i really mean

i wish i could die ; in your arms i find comfort, n its nt a lie

i wish you could complain ; m sorry i never intended to crash ur plane

i wish i could love ; myself,the way he does

i wish i could sleep ; but i cant, as i dont want to see him weep

i wish i could touch ; you taught me the true meaning of love , thank you so much!!